Ugh.

LIFE.

It's killing me.

Week before finals week... CETA (The California Educational Theatre Association) festival/Master classes this entire weekend... AP Music Theory garbage... Spring Awakening's Sunday closing... sickness (cough, exhaustion, congestion, etc. etc)... reviewreviewreview... PMS... costume committee [1950's] research... obvious procrastination... feeling like being a moany bitch, haha.

Blarrrrrrrrggg.
I'm just... so-- ACKSDIUHFMNVJXHD this week. *shrugs* I don't think my energy has ever hit this much of a low before... and I'm not even all too sure why. Hmm. On the upside - however - my missing belt (and I mean VOCAL-wise, not pantaloon-wise, lol) has finally returned after approx. 2 days!! :D THHHHAAAAT, and boys have been strangely lovely towards me lately. One even walked me home today, which... well, never happens.

EVER.
Haha.

........ There was no real purpose in writing entry whatsoever, lulz :P

PS: "Hey, K'nuckles! Wanna play a game? Whoever giggles first, loses! [giggles] You win! Wanna play a bathroom game? Whoever goes to the bathroom first, loses! [pause] You win! Now, how about both? [giggles] You win! [giggles again] You win! [giggles] You win!" FLAPJACK IS OFFICIALLY THE BEST CARTOON IN THE HISTORY OF FOREVER. H8RS CN H8, IDC. Lollerskates xD

Damn Yankees auditions 6:00-9:00 tonight.
Angela Griswold: "Meg" #62.

.......

Pardon my French, but uh...

Effrayé. MERDE MOINS.
[Scared. SHIT LESS.]

Wish me luck... *eeeehhhhh* D:

PS: Guess who just got her very own .AVI(s) of the SA National Touring Cast's Opening Night?! .... TEE-HEE :D

And tonight's was the best of them yet. I'm... I'm so, SO terribly unprepared (and DREADING) tomorrow's closing matinee. Ironically? End. Of. Story.

Full review of the following performance, past shows, pictures, dance party extraordinare, and older-teen-between-shows-Seuss-PCP-perverted-pizza-picnic (whew, haha) soon to come, preferably after both family awards banquet/cast party. I apologiiiize: I know my posts have been... lacking magic lately, but I swear on Mother Mary that I will MOAR than just make it up in both photo and woobie dump :] For now? Too exhausted... too hyped... and yet all too hackin' bummed. G'night, all... <:(

<3

**I apologize GREATLY in advance for the following vent, for auditions have yet to prove themselves a friend to me recently.

I didn't get my solo for Spring Concert. All of my friends (whom did try out, of course) received their's...

All - except for ME.

... I truly thought I had deserved it. And I'm tired of those who don't accepting them...! Though, perhaps I just wasn't right for this production; true-- I'm utterly glad for all of my buds whom are getting the chance to perform for the first/second time, considering that I had had my own piece during our Winter Concert. It's just--... UGH.

It's still disappointing. Especially when those around you don't care to acknowledge - wrapped up madly within their own contentment - the concept of tears pouring down your face [And yet I KNOW they'd feel the same]. (Yes, I cried. I felt the right to be a bit upset) Indeed, this shall be yet another humbling experience for me and I expect to learn a great deal from said experience; honestly... I don't mean to bitch and moan! I never meant to snap... It merely puts oneself into a dreadful, BEATING sort of mind-set, and-- It just, for lack of a better word, SUCKS. Majorly.

... But you know what? Our Cappies Acomendee/Nominee Ceremony took place this evening (just 2 weeks before the official gala). And you know WHAT?!

I GOT A MEDAL.

Stick that in your pipe and smoke it, ya'll. XD

I didn't make it into Vocal Ensemble...

And - as if my day didn't suck enough already - guess what?

Socha has been confirmed as the new proceeding Wendla.

FUCK MY LIFE.

Ugh.... today... was pretty much suckish. Worse than suckish - it. Was. Fucking. Awful.

1. Choir Audition: I... I dunno', I sort of d-don't really wanna'... get into it. Let's just say - it was quite obvious I was sick. (I continuously had to stop and cough between warm-ups, I had NO proper control over my breathing whatsoever... though my head voice was a tad ok) I'm hoping to speak to Mr. Hedgecock about it tomorrow and, if I can't manage to get a second chance, I'm hoping he'll at least understand my current situation and take into part my previous performances in both the class and concert... again - wish me luck. :[

2. Geometry: Lots, and LOTS of make-up work, a power-point project-- just... BARF.

3. Comedy/Improv was canceled. AGAIN. Ugh...

Unfortunately, said events caused major frustration, and said frustration caused a lil' bit of a breakdown. I know it seems silly of me to be so upset by such a simple audition (considering I wish to enter a business where rejection is a HUGE part of the reality), but... this is something I want to do for the rest of my life, and being a part of Vocal Ensemble would only both further and better my training! It's just... I don't know. It's hard at times, however much I try and convince myself that - truly - it isn't. But... I do feel a hell of a lot better after venting to both my friends and family, and I pray to every God in folklore that Mr. Hedgecock will take SOME sort of pity on me.

Though - lunch was hysterical, as always! XD

ALYSSA: (talking about her recent Spring Break in Ireland) We had all kinds of Irish animal friends that we named. We saw a reindeer and named him Pumpkin. We found a cat, took him in and named him Starbreeze. Snowflake - the baby cow, Marshmellow - the baby bird--
KAYLEIGH: Why wouldn't you name a sheep Marshmellow?
ALYSSA: Because the sheep's name was Skippy!!

***

ME: Marisa, may I please have a tater tot?
MARISA: (gesturing towards her tray) Sure.
ME: Well, I'm sick so... could you please pick one out for me and drop it in my hand?
MARISA: (doing so)
ME: (Popping it into my mouth and smiling) OWM (- weird food eating noise) - Thank you!
(Suddenly, Kayleigh and Laur burst out laughing)
MARISA: (raising an eyebrow) Umm... are you guys ok?
KAYLEIGH: We're laughing because Angela is funny.
ME: (grins through tater tot, causing the two to laugh even harder)

Hells to the yeah for funnies! Lol. (PS: Dinner was purdy good: sandwich wraps and home-made, low salt french fries. Can you say "yum"?! I can say "yum". YUM)

*Sigh* Well... again - if you could wish me your kindest words for a second hope, I'd really appreciate it. Thank you all so much for taking the time to listen. I pray tomorrow is a better day...

Ugggggggggghhhhhh...

That's how much my thermometer read this morning. *BARF*

*Cough, cough - hack, hack... BLECH!!* Ugh..... I HATE being sick... Head congestion, a cough/scratchy throat, stuffy nose... I haven't been sick in an eternity - I've forgotten how much it BLOWS. And I just happen to cach something during Finals week? Coincidence?! I think not. Ugggggggghhhhhh...

Although, I did manage to squeeze out some creative juices and write a story yesterday. It's the first part of many; I saw Enchanted on Saturday night and was inspired! (BEST DISNEY MOVIE EVER!!! Giselle is TOTALLY my new favorite princess!) :D Check it out on my DeviantArt account if you get the chance - it's called, "When You Wish Upon A Penny 1"...

And now, if you'll e-excuse me... *Cough, cough, cough, COUGH!!!! Boooooooo... again...*